You know what I hate? I hate when you're having an amazing day, for once you're happy and loving life. Then a song comes up on shuffle that sucker punches you in the gut, leaving you gasping for breath, and completely fucked up. Fucking song.... -_______-

I mean this stupid song just ruined my day, completely fucked it up. And I've been singing it in my head since I heard it, which is not helping my mood. Stupid song knocked the breath out of me, left me out of wack, and missing that person more than ever. Fuck, I'm going to bed. And tomorrow a nice blog about the nightmare brought on by that fucking song! Yay! :D..........X(((((.

Love you guys.

-Rose <3

Gah, yes I know, DINA HAS UPDATED!!! I know some people have died from heart attacks, and instantaneous random attacks of rabies infected frosted flakes right now but the world has NOT ended. Ok now to the point of this blog.

I'm not sorry, I'm laughing my ass off. Brandonio and I were talking and then this nigga tries to ask me out again. O_-  Really? Yes really. That was how my face looked too, surprised, and 'what this nigga doing???' He and I went out twice (technically, the second time was for like seven hours), and it didn't work. HOW THE FUCK WOULD IT WORK NOW?!?!?!?!?!?! So I told him no and he got pissy and ended the conversation with

"Damn i was ask to see u agian damn i moving and wont every see u again i would make for u but fuck it talk to whenever"

Yeah. So I think this blog can end here. Love you guys bye.

-Rose <3

There's no particular order to these songs.

• Gorgeous Nightmare- Escape the Fate
• Fuck You- Cee Lo Green
• You're Going Down- Sick Puppies
• If You Only Knew- Shinedown
• Le Deux- Hollywood Undead
• Radiator- Family Force 5
• Boulevard Of Broken Dreams- Green Day
• Savin' Me- Nickelback
• Ignorance- Paramore
• Fences- Paramore
• Hell Yeah- Rev Theory
• The Strength To Go On- Rise Against
• Re-Education (Through Labor)- Rise Against
• But Tonight We Dance- Rise Against
• Possibility- BoA
  

Those are my favorites for October. I have very random taste, from J-Pop to R&B to Rock to Alternative. I'm so weird. Hehe. Ok I'm going to go, check out those songs!

Love you guys!

-Rose <3

Parents. From ages 0-10 you love them to death. From 11-29 you hate them. And supposedly from 30-whenever you love them. Yeah right, oops did I say that? Oh of course you love them, because they're so perfect. Did anyone smell that? Oh that's the sarcasm permeating the air.

Yeah things on the parent front isn't so good. They're fighting a lot, my dad hasn't been home all day. And by all day I legit mean all day. My brother knows something is up, and he's worried. My fucking mom won't tell me what's wrong, and it's pissing me off.

I don't give a shit if they're fighting, I grew up with my mom fighting with her boyfriend before my step dad. Fight all the fuck you want, just keep it quiet, and not when there are people over. (It's so white trash when people do that and my mother has done that before when I was younger, soooo embarrassing. Just FYI my mom and step dad are white. My biological father is black, white, and Puerto Rican).I just don't want them fighting in front of my brother. The second that happens they're gonna figure about the fact I curse like a sailor. Well actually, I make a sailor look like a saint.

I swear to whatever god or whatever it is that you guys believe in, if that happens shit is gonna hit the fan. My brother is still innocent, he's a kid. He's never had an adult hit him for no reason. Or make him go to bed without eating. Or hurting him. He's never seen two adults fight, throwing shit, yelling and cursing. I have. I don't care if they do it when I'm home, but I'm extremely protective of my brother, I think I'm worse than an older brother with a younger sister.

If they do that, I'm sure as hell not living here. I'll stay with an aunt, or cousin, or who the fuck ever. I'm not about to let my brother or I live in that situation. Been there done that, once was enough for me, and my brother was too young to remember, so he doesn't need to see it.

Well I hope things are going better with you guys, lets keep going strong, holding our heads high, fighting back the tears, and smiling and laughing to forget the hurt. I'm trying, you try too. Four times out of ten it works, that percentage is good enough for me so go on try it.

Love you guys, bye. :)

-Rose <3

Skillet, it amazes me how much I can relate to your music. You're hardcore Christians and I'm hardcore atheist, but your songs are so relatable, I love it! Anyways hey guys, it's your lovely Rose :). I've been listening to Skillet non stop for about a week now. Before that it was Family Force 5. And the week before that Hollywood Undead. Yes I listen to such weird music, don't forget about my obsession with Japanese music :D.

I just, well have no real point to write about, just felt the need to blog. Ok I thought of my topic for the blog. Here it goes:

Choices

Trust me in life there will always be choices you made you'll regret. Not asking out the guy or girl you like. Falling for the wrong person. Wearing that horrible neon yellow shirt that made you look like a raver. We all make bad choices, it's part of human nature. And if you think you don't make bad choices either you're delusion, and you should see a doctor; or you're not being completely honest with yourself.

Just take ten minutes, only ten or so. Just sit there, and think. Think about all the friends, lovers, and people you've lost because of a bad choice. I've made a ton of them, trust me. I've been doing this a lot recently, making bad choices, and reflecting on those choices. Some choices I've made, may of not been the best for the other party, but in the end once my heartache stopped, it was the best for me.

As you all know, I don't open up to people. I've never opened up to ANYONE completely, ever, not even to Dina. So when I care about someone, in any sort of way, it hurts to let them go. To have to forever live with the fact that that person isn't in your life anymore. But usually if you've made a drastic choice like that, then it was most likely for the best. Maybe not for that person but for yourself.

And when I get those instances to think about things, it makes me realize that every bad choice I've made is a chance to grow and develop as a person. Losing a best friend, it may of hurt like hell, but in the end getting rid of all the bad things in your life is always best to do, even if it hurts. To me losing a friend is the WORST thing ever. My friends are my family because I don't get along with my actual family. So losing one is like pulling the plug on a family member who's on life support.

Ok well I think I'm done with this topic. That song the title is from is called 'Lucy' by Skillet. It is one of the most amazing songs ever written. I love it and I love all my readers. Oh and a new chapter on my RPG should be up soon, working on a rewrite of the second chapter from Blaze's point of view, and the fourth chapter.

Love you guys for like EVA!!!! :DDDDDDD

-Rose, who's finally <3

I find it amazing how Dina and I can switch personalities so quickly. Back some time ago (I don't remember exactly when) she was in the same place I am, and I was in the one she was. Now, it's opposite. Oh and Dina I don't rag on the readers, I rag on the world. So if any reader is offended by something I write please leave a message at our complaint department, aka our Facebook.

If a reader feels offended in any way then:

A) You're one of the people I'm talking about, so I don't care.
B) You're the same type of person I'm talking about, so I REALLY don't care.
C) You're overtly sensitive, so I'm actually sorry.
D) You're the type of person who likes to complain, well I don't like your face so meh XP (wow worse come back ever).
E) IDK just wanted to use the letter 'E'. Venting makes me feel better, so my mood has slightly improved.

Well now I'm actually gonna go, and try to heed some of Dina's advice, considering she's probably too busy with Mr. Fuck Shit Piece Of Shit to deal with my agnsty mood right now to talk to me. Oh well that's life, it moves to fast and the ones that can't keep up get left behind in the dust.

-Rose

I gots a phishy! Yay! Her name is Malý Raisa, which means Little Rose, cause she has a red tail. It's a betta phishy, and it's sooooo cuuuuutttteee. (Jesus I sound like my mother). *sighs*

Any who I just got back from getting my phishy and I'm all excited now. Even Mr. Fuckshit piece of shit aka MFSPS couldn't ruin my mood right now! :DDDDDDD I'll write a better blog later once I calm down.

Love you guys, bye!

-Velký Raisa <33333333

Ok since Dina keeps a FUCKED up sleep schedule she is horrible at daily blogging, (either that or she's too busy talking to her bf Mr. Fuckshit piece of shit, which is his new nickname and I will only refer to him as such). Anyways if you're tired of Dina never updating just send me a message, and I'll do it for you. Except I'll add a bunch of curse words, and inappropriate words and phrases.

Just send me an email with your name, a short message for her, and I'll tell her what you said (plus a bunch of curse words and the like). Ok bye.

I know, I know. This was a shitty blog, I had a good one coming, but Dina is asleep (or ignoring me for Mr. Fuckshit piece of shit) and I needed her help. Well I'll write a better one tomorrow, about..... something random or based off some drama I see on Facebook.

Love you guys (except for you Mr. Fuckshit piece of shit), bye!

-Rose <3

This whole entire summer, every time I've eaten Chinese food an gotten a fortune cookie, those fucking bitches have predicted doom and sadness. I think those cookies are telling the truth, I'm going to hole up in my room under my covers with a can of silly string, a bat, a helmet, and my laptop. Write blogs for the rest of my life.

Ok anyways I do not think this school year is going to start out with a bang, more like the boom of a bomb exploding and shit hitting the fan. Oh yeah I'll go through it with the same apathetic, pessimistic, and I don't give a shit attitude I have. It makes life so much easier let me tell you.

Ahhh I'm so random today. I'm going to have my mother take me  to the doctor for ADD testing, or counseling. I think counseling would be more beneficial to me. For some reason I want to bake chocolate chip cookies right now, it's almost 11pm here. But I don't have any chocolate chips so I'll either make sugar cookies, or chocolate-less chocolate chip cookies. Hopefully they won't have shitty and foreboding fortunes in them....

Love you guys!

-Random Rose <3????

Sometimes I wonder/worry about my friends. Like when they run around with lamp shades on their heads, and watch the and text me minute by minute updates on their ramblings and musings about the show. *cough* Dina *cough* Sorry something in my throat. And yes my blog will be a little bit more thought provoking. So I'll hop straight to that.

Ok so today's blog is about how things change. One minute somethings seems set in stone, everything is right in the world. Then the next? Everything is completely opposite, and you have no clue where in the fucking hell you are. Ever happened to you?

It's sure as fucking hell happened to me (fucking hell is my favorite saying right now, I will be saying it as much as possible. Bear with me!). So anyways, I hate when that happens. I hate change, change means losing something you care about usually. And since I don't give a fucking shit about most things in this world losing something I care about is really heart breaking. Trust me I care about very few things. Living, nope. Happiness, nope. Dina, yes. Tre, yes, Amanda, yes. Cortne, yes. That's about all I care about, now that I'm thinking about it. I always put my friends first.

I hate losing anything I care about. I think it hurts worse than like, your husband of 60 years divorcing you for some 20 year old leggy blonde bimbo. Not that that's happened to me but you get what I'm saying. It hurts me, I never really get over it. On those nights when I'm at my lowest, crying myself to sleep, or talking myself down from cutting or doing something stupid like that, it all comes up. Every fucking piece of shit that has happened to me in life, trust me, you can ask Dina too, my life is a never ending pile of shit. It really surprises me how I'm still here.

Anyways, sorry for that majorly depressive and suicidal moment. Today just isn't a good day. Anyways is it just me? Am I the only person who gets hurt this much when the future changes, who has flashback to how they imagined their future. Like for instance, ugh I'm not going to bore you with it. I'm just going to go. I'm not good for anything today, or ever. I'm going to text my friend Matty and have him cheer me up, he seems to be one of the only people who can these days.

Love you guys, hope your lives aren't as fucking shitty as mine. Bye.

-Rose (somewhere between <3 and </3)