This picture is another one of those things that I live by. If a guy can't handle dealing with you at your lowest moment, when you're at you worst, then he is not the right one. This sort of ties in with my post from yesterday. By that I mean guys have to work to get the girl. We aren't simplistic things, we're like onions (not stinky ones, ones that smell like Bath and Body Works).

We're cranky, no we aren't PMSing 365 days a year, just sometimes we just wake up, and want to kill the first person we talk to. No reason at all. We are insecure (thank you modern day media), you're gonna have to be ready to compliment us until we tell you to stop. We make mistakes, for fucks sake we're only human, no matter what kind of pedestal you put us on. We're people just like you, we do things without thinking them through, we do things in a moments of anger.

We are completely selfish, girls want everything from one guy. To love them, to call them pretty, to kiss them, etc. But, here's the sucky part that my stepdad taught me. Guys want one thing from every girl. We all know what that one thing is, and they will try to get it from everyone. Girls may have the bad rap for being more hormonal than guys. But that is the biggest pile of bull poopie. Guys are controlled by their hormones more than girls. And that doesn't stop until we're adults and guys start thinking with their brains and hearts instead of their penises. God I can't wait for those days. Not to say all guys think with their penis, but a hella lot do. I can only name.... 1 or 2? Wow.... I fear for the next generation, what a damn shame.

Ok well I think I'm done ranting. Bye guys I love you!!!!

-Rose <3

Ok last night Dina and I were up late talking on the phone. We were talking about a lot of random shit and I told her some personal stuff that I've never told anyone. Not Brandon, not Alex, not M'Kyla, or any other person ever. We've been friends long enough that I trusted her enough to tell her. This quote got us talking about more serious topics.

Like what the best kiss in our minds would be, what it would take to get us to have an actual serious relationship, etc.

Her ideas of a best kiss were:

1. She and whatever guy are talking and opening up to each other. Then she starts to cry, and she puts her head down, so he can't see her cry. Then the guy tilts up her chin and leans in slowly and kisses her.
2. Having fun and laughing then they catch each other staring and lean in slowly and kiss
3. She and whatever guy are fighting and yelling. then he pulls her close and kisses her really hard.

Ah our Dina is a hopeless romantic. God love you.

Ok and I only had one.

1. Me and whatever guy just goofing around and laughing our asses off about something. Then out of nowhere he pulls me into his arms and kisses me. Just a short, sweet, and simple kiss.

I'm still a hopeless romantic, but not as bad as Dina. I told her her first one was great, it was cute, sweet, and unrealistic. I honestly don't think that is possible. The part I think isn't possible is the opening up part. I'm not going to bore you with my very sad story that we'd call my life. I only tell Dina that, and my friend Tre.

But then something Dina said something that made me think. "Well, that's why it's so perfect. It's a challenge, and if the guy can do it then he can seriously earn my trust." That got me thinking. Can a guy really break down the walls of our hearts. Prove to us that he cares enough. Neither of us have dated guys that have made a dent on those walls.

She honestly thinks that it will happen. I'm withholding judgment. What do you guys think?

God I fucking LOVE this song. It's mostly about a girl whose boyfriend leaves her. She moves on and he tries to come back into her life. She's pretty much saying he should of loved her when he had her. She doesn't want anything to do with him. She's moved on completely, new guy, new style, new attitude, the whole nine yards. When he tries to move back into her life she tells him she doesn't want him anymore, she can't live in the past, they are done, and he can't be a part of her life.

Ps: Thanks for the idea Dina. Having to update at least 4 websites, and 20 stories REALLY caused me to have a writer's block. Thanks girl love ya! Oh and stop reading my texts online, can't a girl have a private conversation with her best guy friend. It doesn't matter if we're talking about you! You know I was gonna tell you once I stopped laughing....well maybe..... just kidding, I would've. Ok that's all for now, I don't think I could have explained that song better. I will try to have another blog up if Dina reminds me!

Ok love you guys!

-Rose <3

"Broken trust and broken hearts.
Somehow the truth comes up missing,
sweet little lies in this
cold hearted world.
Am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
Nobody's gonna come and save you.
After all the things we've been through.
Don't know how we got into this mess,
I don't want to hold on, I want the strength to let go.
Tired of being what you want me to be.
Hurts me to say goodbye but,
you're not worth it."

Wow. I miss creative writing class. I remember writing this. I love how poetry can hold one meaning one day, then a completely different meaning the next. Poetry never ceases to amaze me. The flow, the sound, the stark beauty of it, the truthfulness of the words. I think if i could marry poetry I would. Can you? Someone figure that out, cause if it's possible, I'm doing it.

Anyways before when I first wrote this it had me think about just all this ish going on in my life at the time. I'm not gonna put all my shit out there, so I'll just say it was bad. The line that stuck out to me then was "Hurts me to say goodbye." I don't know why. Well I can't remember why. >.<

Now the line that sticks out to me is "Somehow the truth comes up missing." Cause that's what's going on now. If you know the current drama, meaning 3 or 4 people. (I'm withholding judgement until I get the real story, not the BS excuse I got). Then I'll decide what's gonna happen. Dina that means no murder on the first day of school. No murder until I give you the go ahead. And no threatening either, I gotta get the full, unedited version of this first!

Ok another blog will be up sometime today. Love you all!

-Rose <3

Ack! It's late, I'm tired, stressed from the doctor, I've been laughing my tail off from watching Kings of Comedy, and my vanilla and chocolate swirl tail is goin' to sleep. Two guys and two blogs tomorrow. Good night!

Love you guys!

-Rose <3

Ok let me just say this, so I can get it out of my system. LEWIS WATSON IS ONE OF THE SEXIEST PEOPLE I'VE SEEN IN MY LIFE!!!!! Ok so besides this guy being cute he is an amazing singer. His voice, it makes angels cry. His song #3 is, just, there's no words. It's that good. Go to http://lewiswatson.bandcamp.com/track/3. This song just makes me melt. I'm completely in love with him. It's a damn shame he's in a relationship and lives in England. Oh but unrequited love is the best there is. God I will always love this guy, I can't wait till he becomes mainstream. He's such a great artist, he totally deserves it. Please spread the word about him, the more people that know about him, the sooner he becomes the next Justin Beiber. Except cuter, and a better singer. :) (No offense to Beiberlers, but ya'll are crazy. And not a good kind of crazy).

Ok well this was a short blog, but I've got pictures of my baby daddy Lewis to drool over. So bye everyone. Love you guys!

-Rose <3

I posted a new blog on my site, not this one. And a new chapter on my RPG. Go read!!!!

-Rose <3

Ok so I have a friend. Her boyfriend broke up with her. She wasn't hurt, it takes a lot more than that to hurt her. She started texting him and he said he sorta regretted dumping her.  You can't try to walk back in someones life, after you walked out. This girl just laughed her ass off, she rolled on the floor, literally. So many people have walked out of her life, hell what's one more?

Guys a piece of advice. Think long and hard (quote) about ending a relationship, especially when you said you would never leave her. (Then say if she still like you you'd take her back once school starts. She will never ever ever EVER, cause that gives you power over her and that ain't happening.) At least a week, that's what I did with my ex B , and I was sure it was the right thing. My friend's ex, as far as she knows, didn't do that. Most major problems in their relationship were (at least in her opinion):

• Lack of communication
• No seeing each other
• Things done in a moment of anger, or confusion

Communication via text doesn't count. Texting is an impersonal thing, it can't show emotions. Saying I love you? You can't get tone of voice. Yes i know it's easier to text, but there's no human connection. You can't have a relationship through a cell, it doesn't work that well.

Her parents are REALLY strict and wouldn't let her go out, hence the reason they texted. Her parents would listen in on calls, so she never called. So like I said texting..... BAD IDEA!!!!! Not that she had any other choice but still... not good.

The night before they broke up, they were texting each other their usually lovey dovey jargon. He was saying she was amazing, and beautiful, and etc. She said he was too, and he said no he wasn't. She wanted him to know he was (cause she wouldn't of dated anyone who wasn't). They argued back and forth and she got annoyed, and went to bed. She couldn't sleep and a few hours later she was thinking about their relationship. They  had been writing a story together, and because she's not that good with addressing conflict or confronting problems, so she wrote him an email as their characters. She addressed every problem in their relationship she thought there was, and sent. She went to bed, and had to go to work with her aunt the next day.

Once she got back, she saw like 8 texts on her phone. Guy was breaking up with her. She shrugged and told her mom (mom was happy as hell. She didn't like the guy.). She texted her bestie, and told her. Bestie and her laughed it off, and said "Oh well his loss. Imma have fun this summer ;)" The guy texted her a few times asking if she was mad (she liked him a lot, but his actions don't control her emotions.) She said no, and talked to him for a bit. She didn't care, it was his loss. He still wants to be friends, and she (being the realist she is) said maybe. If he thinks he can just walk in and out of her life, he's muy loco. She's severed all emotional ties with him. He's just some random person now. Maybe still her friend, but he has lost the best guy friend title.
 
There's always a silver lining though. She's been wanting to change her look, her style, and image to something that matched her better. But since she was in a relationship, she didn't because it wasn't the guy's thing (dumb move on her part), and she couldn't devote the time or energy to it. So now that she's single she can do that.  So goodbye average looking her, hello to new and improved her! some of you will see at school this August. Lets hope her parents will let her do what she want to do to her hair, and image. Keep your fingers crossed I'll keep you updated on how she and her ex are doing, everyone loves a good soap opera.

Love you all my darlings.

-Rose <3

Today's guy up, go look at him. Extra sexy today!

Like I said a few days ago breaking up sucks, but being single is fun. It means you can flirt with the guy selling stuff at a consession stand, or the very cute pool boy employed at your aunt's pool (who always has his shirt off), or just a random guy. No need to get mad if a guy breaks up with you it means he wasn't the right one. Just wait and there is ALWAYS someone just as good or better. Try to go for better so your next relationship doesn't end the same. And don't go worse, that makes no sense. Anyways I believe there's someone out there for everyone, and you gotta go through some guys before you find him.

You can try to be friends, but DO NOT  get back with him. It just makes you look like he was that important, if he dumped you then he wasn't the right guy for you. Maybe a good fit (pardon the pun there), but not perfect. It also makes you look weak and women ARE NOT weak little girls who can't get past a guy, and are forever in love with him. If you are a little girl that can't get past a guy, then you shouldn't be dating, no guy is worth crying over. I don't care if you've been together for years, months, or weeks, he's not worth wasting bodily fluid, no need to get dehydrated. Do things you only do when your single. Wear those ratty sweat stained shirts you could never wear, forget to wash your face, eat 20 pounds of pizza, and belch like you're trying to break the windows.

It's fine to look back on the relationship fondly but it's not okay to want him back. He gave you up and it's his loss. You're an amazing, beautiful, fucking awesome person and DO NOT need a guy to complete you, you were single for most of your childhood, so you don't need a guy. That's what guy friends are for. Just remember the pool guy, and cute guy at Walmart ;). Remember you're young, free, and single. You can go through 50 guys, and still be fine. And being single rocks, I'm already planning to go hang with my girls, gotta make some calls so imma go. Love you all my readers, have a great life.

-Rose <3